Today was a particularly difficult day. I don't typically share things like this, but for me, it reinforces the fact that my infertility is real. It is something we will continue to struggle with, but it helps me realize how grateful I am for the adoption process. It strengthens me and gives me hope every day. This last week I had been showing signs of pregnancy. I have been on pins and needles hoping for a positive test. However, deep down inside, I felt like it was too good to be true but I couldn't give up hope. But I had to stay positive. I was going to do a blood pregnancy test tomorrow so I would know for sure, but all the signs were there. And then.... after 7 days of hoping, I found out I was not pregnant. I guess, ultimately, I knew I wasn't but wanted it so badly that I kept telling myself that this was it. Every day that goes by, makes me more and more grateful for the steps we are taking toward adoption. We may never be given the chance to have a baby of our own, and honestly, it is the hardest thing to comprehend. But I know that through adoption, we will be able to raise a child we can call our own. I know without a doubt that we will love that baby more than anything in the world. When we hold that baby in our arms, we will know that these 7 years of waiting, were worth it!